This week, my work schedule will change. I will be working weekends and my days off will be Tuesday and Wednesday. This will be a disruption in my usual routine but I am sure I will get used to it pretty quick. In order to stay on path, I am still doing my prep ahead meals and meal planning. I am also packing my lunches daily and avoiding eating out at all costs. It is my trigger. I am going to increase my daily step goal and keep working on removing grains and sugar off my diet. So far, after the cookie debacle, I've been good with no sugar, the grains are a bit harder for me but I'll get there. My brain tries to make it harder on myself, but I have pushed through ....with lots of pushing.
I had some,one tell me the other day that I am trying to be too strict with myself and that it could work against me in the long run. Their logic is that by denying myself, I will fall flat on my face and be worse off.I know how my brain tries to trick me into wanting back to my old habits with food. It's still right there beneath the surface, I'm still sick with this food addiction, I am just trying to heal myself. I present today as a perfect example. We were doing chores and going through the junk mail. There were 3 flyers from Papa Johns, 2 forms Pizza Hut and one each from Mickey D's and Ruby Tuesday.
Apparently, Pizza Hut has something new they're doing to their pizzas. I said ooh maybe we should try once! I told myself well, it's only one day one meal, I've been trying so hard, I deserve a treat. I have only used 200 calories today...What a dumbass lol. I rationalized with myself that I could fit in two slices of thin crust and be ok. We went online and started ordering. My roomie said, "are you sure you want to do it? I know how hard you been working on your food.". My knee jerk reaction was to get pissy because I was being questioned but a second later it hit me, what the heck was I thinking trying to rationalize pizza in my diet when I am working on living grain and sugar free!! My roomie recognizes how hard I try and she was trying to help me out. I thanked her for bringing me back from the dumbassery zone and we went to eat a healthy lunch instead.
Yes, we went straight to the kitchen and I had fresh raw veggies, an ounce of cheese and some almonds. Do you see why I have to be so strict? If I loosen up my grip, I can easily go back or try to rationalize my bad ways! If I had gone ahead an ordered that pizza, I know for sure I would be feeling overstuffed, guilty and instead of thinking about going for a walk I would be thinking about taking a nap. I'm past it now but this is why I know, I have so much to learn and see through. I am here, here is a good place to be. But here is not my final goal. I still have to get THERE. And THERE is more than a number on the scale, it is a way of life and thinking. A lifelong commitment to my body and my health.
After getting done with lunch, I got my LUNCHBOX OF THE NEXT DAY out of the way. I am not taking any chances on getting some dumb food ideas haha planning and thinking ahead will be one of saving graces.
Here's the before :
I bought me a Julienne peeler yesterday so I was looking forward to trying it out for tomorrow's lunch.
Here's the Final product:
There's a salad with julienned cucumbers and carrots, chopped radishes and fresh cilantro. The little green container has my lemon juice to use as dressing, for protein I have 1/2 c of tuna and half an ounce of almonds. I packed some extra radishes to snack on if I need them. I am sticking to the low carb protein drink for breakfast with half a grapefruit. Seems to do the job at keeping me full all morning. For dinner, I have my freezer meal of boneless pork chops with tons of veggies ready to be thrown in the oven in the evening. So how is this week looking for you?